No one wants me around...

I'm so glad that you guys got together...really wish the best for you guys! one mind load off...

now i can be alone, as long as my friends are happy, i am happy.

met new friends, got a new life, and i know that as long as im unwanted you guys will always be there for me...

but i still feel bad, i don't want to be anyone's burden...

im always in the position of matchmaking people, or seeing people hugging each other, or getting lovey dovey, but never in the position of actually getting loved...

I yearn to receive bouquets of roses
I yearn to be there for him whenever he is down
I yearn to have dinner with the one i love just once a month and see him being happy with himself and his career...
I yearn to love him with all my heart and will
I yearn to be loved in return...

But all these never took place...

I know it's really an embarrasing thing to actually not have a date until the age of 20...but i cant help it when every person that i met wants physical pleasure fulfilled by me...and im actually forced sometimes to do it. It wasnt something that i envisaged...for real

I understand the kind intention you have for me, and it's really my honour to accept it...however...no point introducing a person to me that i cant possibly fantasize about when i don't even whether he is interested in me.

Coz i know that he definitely won't be the person that will always be there for me when i need him. He definitely won't be the person that can give me 100% of his love when i can give him 100% of my definite love. If he can't even manage his own time and send out messages to people that is dear to him...he shouldnt be the person that i expected to be my prince charming. If he really is interested, he would have messaged me, and not just say that he is paiseh.

Sorry for my unexpected short term disappearance...please let me be alone

Mood = Sad

Mood: Sad and Pissed

How could they insult me like that?! saying that i take my allowance and use it to buy myself some drugs to make myself high. I have my own dignity too u know.

Chee bye...cut my allowance to 20 bucks a week, snip off my card...freaking hell losing my grip on my life right now la.

Don't even try to understand my predicament right now, only can rub it in. add salt add oil..what's coming next man?! tell me! what?!

I know this is lame..

I cant help it! the tickle tests are so fun to me nowadays!~ i just had to try one more...

I AM A GOLDEN RETRIEVER!
No bones about it, you're a popular, fun-loving Golden Retriever. Adored by all and too cool for school, you're extroverted and enthusiastic. Your magnetic personality makes you the life of any bash.

Goodness

My IQ is 109! lol!

"This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Inventive Inquisitor. You have the unusual distinction of being equally good at math and verbal skills. This means you are a creative thinker and are uniquely good at teaching others through experiences. You are also a great improviser and very good at handling change."

Death in the darkness and neon lights

Over-excessive Clubbing, Alcholic, Desperation of Love

OMG! Great Blog Star!

Bryanboy is just so cool, hot and cynical in a good way! I love u bryanboy!

Blogging...

I think..this template is still the best, and it suits the current mood that actually fits perfectly into my life right now...and i feel that as a person i am growing day by day, unknowingly....

Even though anaesthesias are good when you need to stay calm, overdose of it may result in life long regrets. Cease the current situation, that really helps alot.

However i've always felt that loads of people who actually make out a facade think that no one actually can see through it...well i guess i probably had a slight resemblance to those people then...

Some people really think that they can get away with things so easily. I think likewise. What can i say? ..... I love to hunt for prey, making them inferior and getting out of their farkin neuro...

The Anaesthesia...

I've been dwelling on it for a long time....

I am not who i wanna be....
don't wanna force myself to be that...
it's time i took some force and control
wrath....

Ignorance provocates....
No bloodsport...just plain old school...
Cynical? No...
Bad Sense of Judgement...