Another day has passed...

Well i can't exactly explain how lonely i get sometimes, i guess my friends think im always up on some shyt, or just out with random people.

Guess the fuck what, im always alone. I have no idea how i managed to portray myself as a socialite. I guess im pretty much of a loner, since im always meeting the wrong dates (either attached or just not my cup of tea). My friends all seem to can get appointments on and dates with their boyfriends or girlfriends. I can't, i seem to have lost that ability to socialise that much with other people recently. I seem to have been cut off totally from society. I guess im kind of alienated.

I think my good scores in academics do reflect this fact ya know?
I have alot of time to study, and i can't complain that i don't because i really really do not hang out with other people at all, except my best friend and my schoolmate.

I spend alot of time at home, or at gym, or at the swimming pool. I feel uneasy at clubs recently, and i have no idea why. I guess i've outgrown the clubbing mood.

Whatever, i guess im better off being alone as usual. I've never really had a day whereby my buddies would actually do something special for me. I get the shyt moments whereby i really do feel that everyone's avoiding me on purpose. I guess im just being sensitive...or is it really the case? I don't know....

Tears...

Tears are for the faint hearted. We all know that, and i know im not supposed to be part of that. But all these emotional baggages are really bursting out of space inside me.

He knows, I know....it's the right thing to do. We cannot be unfair to other people...

As usual, i think it's the right thing to get away...leave things the way it was before...

But....

I can't carry it anymore....

I can't hold back my tears.....anymore.....

I am tired....really....

It's time for me to go back to where i came from....

Im officially an A.C bitch

For all you guys out there who actually adore Adrianne Curry, i really think that she's the shyt because she's so fucking cool which leads to the question of why she went out passe?

Guys you really gotta watch her on youtube, doing nowlive.com shows 2 years ago. She really rocks with her tits and crass talks and her peanut butter jelly dance!

Please, vote for her. haha!

Liar!

Ok im really hopping mad. I can't believe my friend actually make up one whole big fucking fat lie just to go to a bloody gay sauna.

2.30am - he received a sms which i didn't even question much about, then he said he's going off like half a minute later saying that he cannot stand the smoke in the club.

I went home alone.

8.30am - he smsed me back explaining that he didnt go to the sauna, and he had severe headaches from the smoke in the club.

Like how "believable" can this be? Im not angry because he went to a freaking sauna, but because a explanatory lie was made up because of a freaking lousy reason.

Like come on la, 6 hours difference leh, u think im dumb? We've been friends for freaking 6 years and ur trying to pull off such a stunt in front of me? i cannot believe it, totally.