fuck u

(This is a disclaimer, not meant for dappi and her girlfriend because you people are the most sensible couple i have seen)
Haiz...i don't want to see them get hurt if i shout at them, so i decided to bang every fucking thing here.

Seriously what is up with u lesbiens?! doing all the stupid things that might end urself up into serious trouble everytime! It may be just one minor thing too, but u gurls seem to really make the scene out of everything so that the public can actually take notice of u people.

When you guys need me then call me, it seems that im always the one asking you gurls out seriously. I don't know why because you gurls seem to always have a predicament and i get to eat all the shyt finale in one whole pie.

I may not even get that pie, but i still get to experience part of the process of making that bloody pie that makes u gurls suffer like mad. Seriously what is the point when the objective of life is not to make urself even more miserable and start being happy. Dwelling on it doesnt make u happier, it makes u sad. You gurls promise this promise that, in the end who are the ones that are sickies, it's you gurls! So stop doing that when ur cannot handle it! It hurts people around you because they are the ones that are trying to be happy.

I know it's cool to be butch! But lately i've been seeing loads of drama from you girls and it gives me the total idea that u gurls are totally passive instead of having the masculinity that i'm supposed to see you guys have. It just totally beats off the idea of being butch. No point being weak when you want to be strong rite?

I don't even think you guys remember my birthday. But i'm seriously not expecting any gifts from you gurls. I just want to disappear out of your lives right now and totally see you gurls get happy with the fact that there is still a spark of life in your respective lives. Get on with it and make a point out of it. Why bother being depressive and stuff?!

Want me to make a real summarized statement about the fact that im hanging out with you guys?

It's really been fun, i had great moments attached with you gurls seriously but it's not getting anywhere, everytime i meet u gurls i keep hearing all the same names all over again. It may seem interesting to u people, but it's doesnt to me. I want to hear more things seriously. I believe there's more to life than hearing all those small small things that makes yourselves worried momentarily and thereafter continuously. As it went on, i really had a tough time handling with it coz i really need some space to breathe, not once did anyone hear my problems...not once did u girls actually ask "is everything okay with ur life over there?", not once did anyone of you asked "do you need a break?"... And not once did anyone tell me "hey! my life is made up in a good way because there is you!"

Seriously i need air to breathe, everytime i wanna talk about my own problems, i always get shut up easily when u girls have problems, and i really wanted to say it out but realized it wasnt a good time. IM GOING MAD! Sorry for my permanent disappearance...i won't be talking to you people from now on because i think whether i'm there anot, it doesnt really matter, coz my existence and my worries and my sorrow has been ignored. I don't have the capacity to show the happy side of me anymore. Bye...